Unspeakable 

In the land of writing prompts and photos, I’ve managed to tie together the work I write with Angela Burton of Feet to the Fire Workshops and the photos taken by Anna May of Anna May Photography. This is my second piece of connective work. They’re running the trend of reflective and weighted with the focus on personal growth. I hope you enjoy them as much as I do.

Without further ado: Unspeakable

I heard a song and it made me think of you so I drove around for a bit longer before I went home to my new life. Yet no matter how far I go, my heart and mind are in strife.

I can’t stop this train from running off of its tracks.

It was as if it were a montage of photos, memories, and moments piecing together in my mind with the everlasting takeaway that you showed me how to love again so my heart won’t let you go. Is it strange I never let you know?

Was this moment real or was it merely a vivid dream sparked from the scent in the rain on fresh cut grass and a cool crisp wind blowing through the window cracks?

The mixed emotions that accompany my thoughts, make me realize I’ll never get back the time so why do I try? Haven’t I been through enough, why must you make me cry?

Is it because I moved forward and you stayed locked in time? I didn’t mean to hurt you but staying would have been a crime.

I hope you understand the life that I had to live for. It was the path that gave me more to match what I give. Our connection was real but love is the reason I live.

You hated the glitter and all the light I chased. I guess that’s why you tried to taint it with a bitter taste.

Why must you play games and make your pain a monopoly? When we both know you need a fake apology from me to show you that you were right. But you’ll never hear it from me, for I’d rather sink in than lose this fight.

It feels so heavy.

The time we shared is stained with loneliness and tears. I guess that’s why I never told you I was leaving for I knew you’d be consumed by your fears.

Yet here we are and I can’t get out of the car and so I’ll drive to the place I know you reside.

But we both know that you and I don’t have to play. Neither of us could ever leave the other alone long enough to stray.

So here it breathes, the unspeakable connection that we both keep at bay. But today I was pulled close to you even though we both know I can’t stay.

To my surprise and yours, the seperation had ran its course. For when we locked eyes, I knew it was you even though it was my own eyes.

There you are, I see you. You’re alive within me. No matter how long we go again or whatever comes to be. I know that you’re where I need to find you to be reminded of the person I needed to free.